3rd year life.

HS 3rd year life for me is more or less like college life already. It is extremely hard and I actually have to study now. Despite my happy-go-lucky attitude, I could still make it to the honor rolls before. Now, I'm certain that would happen unless I exert some effort. Honestly, I am not yet used to it. I just hope and pray that I would get used to this type of life. I know I will. God's there to help me =)

it's just so hard...

first day of school

I am already an incoming 3rd year student, but seriously, I've never been so scared to go to school. Normally, I'm scared but with a hint of excitement. I have this feeling that the new school year (especially the first days) aren't going to be so nice. I have changed a lot over the summer, and I'm afraid people will make fun of me because of those. Yes, I have a lot of insecurities, but what can I do? I'm soo freakin' cared, and I really hope that things are going to be fine. Oh, I almost forgot...the reason there's no excitement right now id because I already know who my classmates are. Normally, that's the main reason why I'm excited for school...so, yea.

help me. =(

why did I even make an account here?

I'm the type of girl who doesn't want anyone to know about my personal life. Trust me, I'm THAT secretive. Yes...I'm afraid of what others might say. A lot of people tell me, "ignore them" or "so what if they think that way?" But I just can't do so. I guess this is why I've been very silent. Not literally silent though... Silent in a way that no one else knows my secrets. I have a best friend. She knows a thing or two, but that's it.

Anyway, about the blog title... I made an account so that I can just yap out ANYTHING and EVERYTHING I want to say. I don't care if no one reads it. Actually, that's the point. No one is going to read it. Yes, I'm weird. There is no use in making a blog if no one reads it. True, but I don't exactly care. I'll think of this as a second diary or something like that =)